Exams..... aarrrgh
I am so stressed out by this exam thingy.... everyone is having some kinda expectations from me.... well i guess it's good but not when some idiot decided to spur you on by using negative means... ie.. my moma... "You sure fail one if you continue like dat" + other untypable expletives..(mainly because it is in another language..)
It is really during such occassion like this that causes loving my moma so difficult... in a fit of anger, i slammed the door... guess what, now it is permanantly uncloseable... that means... no more personal space!! my moma have this damn bad habbit of openning doors without knocking. "So long as you live under my roof..." ==> this is what she will say to warrent herself the right to search, kapo, dig... and the whole works around my stuff.... so much for independence..... *sigh* Why can't she for once understand... I AM NO MORE A moma's BOY.... i am a MAN wif 2 testicles ready to make babies...
um.... well done... door spoil, pissed off... how can one study in such condition?? God, i leave this to you... Today got to be different...
prayer time: "God i lift my emotions up to You. Even as i decide and want to concentrate, God, grant me a peace of mind, as well as the ability to comprehend and analysis my study materials. Let not all earthly distractions distract me, especially when it is regarding my mother. Give me the capacity to love her more each day, dispite her shortcomings, and i pray that she will understand too that by doing what she does, it is not helping me at all. Heavenly Father i thank you for what you have done in my life, and i thank you for the things that are going to happen in my life. I believe that the vision you have for me is bigger than what i can ever imagine. God help me to grow and expand myself so that i can be a vessel in your Kingdom. With this i pray, Amen."
It is really during such occassion like this that causes loving my moma so difficult... in a fit of anger, i slammed the door... guess what, now it is permanantly uncloseable... that means... no more personal space!! my moma have this damn bad habbit of openning doors without knocking. "So long as you live under my roof..." ==> this is what she will say to warrent herself the right to search, kapo, dig... and the whole works around my stuff.... so much for independence..... *sigh* Why can't she for once understand... I AM NO MORE A moma's BOY.... i am a MAN wif 2 testicles ready to make babies...
um.... well done... door spoil, pissed off... how can one study in such condition?? God, i leave this to you... Today got to be different...
prayer time: "God i lift my emotions up to You. Even as i decide and want to concentrate, God, grant me a peace of mind, as well as the ability to comprehend and analysis my study materials. Let not all earthly distractions distract me, especially when it is regarding my mother. Give me the capacity to love her more each day, dispite her shortcomings, and i pray that she will understand too that by doing what she does, it is not helping me at all. Heavenly Father i thank you for what you have done in my life, and i thank you for the things that are going to happen in my life. I believe that the vision you have for me is bigger than what i can ever imagine. God help me to grow and expand myself so that i can be a vessel in your Kingdom. With this i pray, Amen."
posted by gaff @ 3:59 PM
1 Comments:
At 6:46 PM,
Vanessa the Muffin In Action said…
Alamak ........... that's his way of saying that he's capable of taking responsibilities in a crude way... ( quoted directly from him )
=p
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